Chasing Intan

current mood : excited One of my friend gave me a comment in my FS page, and she said, Gosh you've just celebrated your 5th year anniversary! And I was like, yup, it's such a long time that we've been together. I suddenly remember that she has given me a gift 5 years ago, which I still keep it on my desk. Here it is: How adorable is that? I used to call my boyfriend "Dunkin" back then cos his school near Dunkin Donut's and his name begin with letter D. LOL. How idiot I was? That's very high-school-romance! LMAO. Anyway, thanks again for the gift, cos it always remind me about our friendship and my high-school-moment. I've no idea that me and my boyfriend can stay together for 5 years in a row! PS: Special thanks to my super adorable, cutie pie, and very creative mind : Nadia Ardiansyah

Do you know what can we do to help others? No, you don't have to go to Africa to save AIDS epidemic there, or you don't have to go to China to evacuate earthquake's victim, even you don't have to spend millions of your money to orphanage. So what can we do? None other than pray . His sister told me that there was one thing which we can do easily and for free, but we often forgot about it. Pray . Sometimes we become very selfish, and always ask God about everything in our life. Contrary with other human being whom live far away or even close from us whom not as lucky as us. We have to send them a pray. Not just pray for ourselves, or for our family and friends, but also for other people in this world. People who suffering, people who needs our help. Although we can't give them money, and meet them in person and help them physically, but at least we can pray for them. And you know how big the power of a prayer is! So what are you waiting for? Let's whisper our pr

Ames with her daddy n mommy current mood : praying PLEASE God. Don't let her die!! Judges of the prestigious awards for song-writer in British, Ivor Novello Awards , had awarded her song Love Is A Losing Game for "Best Song of The Year". And this is one of my fave Amy's performance for Love Is A Losing Game..

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current mood : ?%$#%@^@ I'm not feeling well today as I always think about him. But there's something wrong between us. No, actually there's something wrong with me. After all five + years being in a relationship with him, this is the first (and the worst) feeling I've ever feel for him. I don't know why and what's going on with me, but I just feel a little bored and tired with this relationship. My Daddy once said that I've to talk about everything to him, mostly about our future cos he sees us that we're getting serious day after day. Cos he doesn't want his children commit a divorce in the future. I know it seems odd, considering I'm not going to marry anytime soon. But I tried it anyway. I thought that's pretty important, and I've pay much attention for this. So I was trying to talk with him not directly of course (I'm not THAT idiot). And you know what, there were LOADS disagreement between us. YES. After many years, I realiz

current mood : desperate I've just woke up and suddenly I was thinking about my future. I'm very afraid now. Seems that I'm unable to handle it. Time goes by very fast and I don't think I use them properly. I mean, I'm a lazy girl (shame on me! Gosh I'm humiliating myself.). Now I'm in 6th semester and there are bunch things coming very soon. First, My final exam, which will come in about 1 month. Then MY FINAL THESIS which will start next semester. But most of all, there's one thing which really knock me up : my life after college. What should I do after college? should I work for people, should I work for my Dad, should I open my own store? actually there are so many things that I can do. but the problem is, I'm not sure bout my own ability. So this things goes little confusing.. While the clock will always go tic toc tic toc.. And I'm standing still. poor Me! Desperately need help! Honestly, I can't make a wrong decision because I'm no

current mood : silly thing!! I found this very interesting, so I'll keep it in my blog! Well.. I went to IP (shopping mall in my home town), with my bf. We had our lunch there. Our eyes were on one child, he's a boy and around 11. He was sitting alone in front of us with his gadgets. (Laptop, high-end cell phone, and mp3 player). He surfed the net by his laptop, but strangely, he seemed to hide his laptop from everyone around him. So he kept it very close to him, and kept the laptop half-closed! He was so busy calling his friends, looked at his watch, and then starting to make a call again, checked out his laptop. Just like a mini-businessman. But I wonder what the hell was behind the laptop? LOL. I couldn't help but laugh. I'm not going to be rude, but I bet everyone would have same thoughts as mine. Maybe he want to hidden something from his laptop? That was very funny, I can't describe it in a word, but it was damn funny. OMG He was so so so and too too too youn

Remembering the very first time You caught that someone special's eye And all of your care dropped And all of the world just stopped Not having to say more than two words and the other person instantly getting where you're coming from It's a whole language of its own We don't have to say anything to each other We think alike. One look from him and I know exactly what's going on in his head.

current mood : excited I went to a photo studio near my campus with my friends. Strike a POSE! I wonder how I will look like after all that edited and photo-shopped. LOL. I can't believe that they can make someone's face totally unrecognizable and skinny!! Haha. But that's FAKE darling. Let's see what our face will look like. Wait until three weeks!

current mood : OK. Last Saturday I hang out with his mom and his sis. We were going to Kongo, had dinner there, and bought a plant. His Mom is biggest fan of plants. She grows many plants at her house. So, there was a gallery in Kongo (wood gallery) and it was freaking us out! DAYUM* !! Let's take the dining table for example. It made by wood, a teak. They just cut the very raw wood and voila "The most fascinating dining table (from wood) I've ever seen!". Although it's rough but very artistic. I want that I want that I want that! -- that words keep screaming on my mind! Later I knew that those words also screaming on their mind too!!) LOL. Anyway, it was fiercingly EXPENSIVE. Do you dare to buy a little computer desk for above 10M IDR? Get REAL!! Yup maybe I would buy it, if I were President's daughter, Donald Trump's wife, or Tiger Wood's sister (God it's impossible, I'm White!). LMAO. What we could do was just starring at all those art, wit

name another near-fifty-year-old who can still rock a hot crotch shot on her album cover current mood : DANCE Got this album!! Finally, after a long waiting!! But this album really worth to wait. Not only because I'm M's huge fan, but this album also has a really good vibe, and I think it was made to set the mood. Cos every time you hear that, you don't want to just sit and stand still. But you'll go.. To the left.. To the right :) LOL. Just like she sang in "Give It 2 Me". I basically love all tracks, but my highlights are : 4 Minutes --> Loved it when the first time I heard that! Superb! Timbaland and JT gave a very nice touch for this song. Candy Shop --> This track leaked all over internet months ago, and it was great! Really catchy. my sugar is raw, sticky and sweet . Give It 2 Me --> Let me tell you now - it's mindblowingly amazing . There's cowbells , twinkles and all . This song will be 2nd single and the tune can't stop spins i

current mood : awful I'm in my lowest. I can do nothing right. Feel empty. I'm losing my God. Losing my "happy family" figure. I'm losing my "real friends". I'm even losing my own self. My life like shit. Ignore me God. But my life sucks. I got nothing to do. Nothing to achieve for. I feel NUN. LIVE my life!! Wake me up. From this fuzzy dream Please help me I'm LOST.

current mood : DAZED and CONFUSED What on earth am I here for? I always think that I'm nothing. There's nothing I can do to make this world be a better place. I have nothing to be proud of. In fact, I always under-estimate myself. That I'm less talented, less pretty, less skinny, less smart, blah blah blah.. I don't know where this shit from, but a little bit more, this thought make me feel like "Yup, this is your REAL condition". Even though some said that I'm not like that. I thought that I'm not THAT bad, too. Negativity. That's what I should deal with. I can't be anything I want if I can't delete my negativity aura from my mind. I keep telling myself that I'm nothing. But I don't have a strong will, that's true. URGH!! Seems like I fell in a same hole every time I try something new. For example, I was trying to cook, started to love it, and then left it. Bored. Yeah, I easily got bored. So I never achieve in what I do, if y