Chasing Intan

I believe that nothing very very good and nothing very very bad lasts very very long. all things come to an end. That's the circle of life. And I don't wanna end up like this. I'm trying to enjoy my whole life now. BUT I'm being under pressure , to be honest. Although I said I began to love my job, but part of it was a LIE. and I've just realized that I can't lie to my own self and pretend that I love my job. Before I sleep, I always figure out what had happened on that day. And geez, I feel like I don't have a soul anymore, especially in my job. I must take care all my Dad's business without really took a time to learn. I'm learning by doing. I was inexperienced . And his factory is complicating. Very complicating. And my Dad dictates me, instead of teach me. Maybe if I've given chance & time to learn, I'd be glad. Everything can went wrong on first month you work at a new workplace. But my Dad didn't accept faults. All has to be PE...

curent mood: tired my new job at my Dad's company is not bad after all. Despite of long drive (about 1.5 hours from my home), I begin to like it. I was trying hard to love my job. His company is all about textile industry. We produced raw material for bed sheets, for sofa, etc. I mean, this is NOT what I wanted. Sitting behind a desk, and take care all of our goods (both quality and quantities), the biggest challenge is to manage people. And 1 more thing, to create a new system and modernizes the old system. If I say old, I mean we have a very ancient system. This company built about 30 years ago and until now the system haven't significantly changed. Can u believe it? And my task is to reconstruct the system. Worse is, I never want all of this. I'd rather be an make up artist, or a fashion editor in magazine. I know people will call me stupid, but that's what I always want to do. But my family don't take a NO for an answer. If my Dad want something, then be it. The...

curent mood: sad sad sad I decided to suspend my very own baby, CutesyGirlz. I.. couldn't handle it anymore. Some says, "I should hire an assistant!" Me say, what for? I don't think I need 'em. I will re-opening my online boutique as soon as possible. Oh how I love that job, and how shame I was, cos I can't defend it. But I know this is the best way, at least for now. Well, things happened these days were not that nice. There's a lot pressure, at works, at business, but thank God , not at love life (it's FINE I swear.LOL). Works: our division's target seems impossible! I know it's recession, but, please HELP US! I hope they'll change the new scheme soon. But good thing is, IF only I achieve the target this month, then I'll up to the next level. Yay..... End of March is still 3 days to go. HURRY UP Intan!!! \(^^,)/ I haven't tell you about my additional income, which came at the right time, right person, right place. I'm just luc...

current mood: awkward .. First day at work.. I arrived early (at 7.30 am) and no one had come! There was only security and driver. LOL. So I parked my car in the carport at the bank, and the security told me not to park there cos the parking area is only for Customers. So I parked my car at the hotel beside my workplace, Holiday Inn. Then I went straight to 2nd floor, where it would be my 2nd home also.. LOL. I have nothing to do. I was busy texting everybody whom more senior than me, "what should I do? It's like I'm invisible" LOL. Nah.. I just sat down on my desk and just looking at everybody's activity. An hour after, there was one girl, came to me and she introduced herself, her name is Fenny. (** sigh.. finally I've a friend). Then he introduce me to everybody there :) There's nothing too serious about today, cos my job was only learn and study about DBS's products and all. That's confusing! Cos DBS has a LOT products, hmmp... Then my boyfrien...

curent mood: excited!! I got my 1st job at DBS Bank!! Wow.. We're counting the end of 2008 today! So many things have passed in the last 365 days, and I'm still wondering, what have I done? Am I already become a "person" that I wished 12 months ago? Time moves so fast. It was like yesterday, we're celebrating the new year's eve in my house with lots of pizza, pasta, n wine. LOL. But the most important thing is not the celebration, but the will to be a better person. OK actually we can easily change, not always in "new year", but you know, we often feel motivated when new year come. Everyone's busy making the resolution, the achievement list, the dream, etc. But how many of them that really can make it come true? Not much I think.. I'm just so thankful that I'm one of them. I remember the first wish that I wrote last year was "find my God and lead me to His way". And there I have it now. The second was, I wanna still celebrate ne...