Chasing Intan

I want to be appreciated.  As simple as that :) 

Well  This is weird.  I don't think I'm able to write good stuffs anymore. Wait, since when I write a nice piece anyway? Lol. But seriously, it seems I have nothing in mind beside motherhood! Hours and hours passed by where you can find me reading all mommy/parent-related articles. Haha. I don't even spend that much time in fashion websites anymore (where I religiously read before). Of course I veered off once in a while just to catch up with latest trend (that connected with my business). But that's all. I don't find myself obsessing over these specific fashionable shoes or bags. Those days are long gone. I'm not lying when I wrote I kinda miss wearing my skyscraper heels... But where? I have toddler in tow that seems can sit / stand still for 5 seconds. I was busy running with him here and there... Aaaand you wouldn't believe me, but I'm about to purchase my FIRST sneakers. Hahaha. FYI, I never own one. Back in the days when I used to be a gym rat, I a...

Finally.. A non-mommy post! Haha  Earlier today my sister and I played with make up. As the owners of an established beauty online shop (hahaha thats cray) we tend to follow the trend. Acknowledge what's hot right now.. Colors of the season. Palettes that used on the runaway...etc. In the other side of the world have entered the fall season. And "the color" of fall is burgundy/bordeaux. So that's what we tried today. A vampy lips as they said in the magazine.  I was very excited cos I didn't get a lot of time to do my hobby nowadays. Vale has been such an energetic bunny who always on the move! I don't even comb my hair, just tuck it all in the ponytail. Or a bun. Or whatever it called, so Vale can't pull it off.  Anyway, here's the look. It's not that perfect. How could it be perfect when those two tiny hands always grab my thigh when I did my eyeshadows.. Lol. But hey at least I tried :D  Two sides of the same coin... Sissy chose red lipstick ins...

Just in time for our 2nd wedding anniversary (which will due tomorrow)... Mr D bluntly said, "on his journey to find true love, I guess Vale will search someone whom adventurous, brave, smart, with high self esteem, and someone whom not too care about her appearance. Someone whom not depend on make up and things like that. Someone whom unlike  you.."  He said it right to my eye. I know it's too early to say those things. But, I was hurt okay? While he's the one who always say that he wants to have a wife whom precisely the same as his mother. Loving, kind, feminine, patience, etc etc I'll be here all night if I have to write down things that Mr D love about his mom. And to heard him say something like that, it was like a slap in my face...times twelve. Am I that "negative" so my son someday will avoid the type of woman like me?  Or even worse, is it what he's been trying to tell me? That I'm not good enough.. Well I've never been good enough ...

Yesterday I went with the girls.. Errr I guess "ladies" would be appropriate hahah LOL. Of course with our dearest babies who happened to have the same age.. And with their nannies too. Vale is the only one who doesn't have nanny. But my friends insisted to bring along the lady who works at my house to accompany us. They thought I always being too hard to myself and I need a sprinkle of fun every once in a while. Vale was sleeping at the car so I decided to brought her with us.  We gathered at this playground, named Miniapolis. It was the first time I actually go there :D. PVJ is the mall that Mr. D avoid. Despite the distance from our house, parking lot in PVJ is the worst ever.. Not forget to mention the nursery room. In short, the mall is not baby friendly AT ALL. But it has quite good shops.. That's why I do crave to go there every other day.  :D.  The ladies were starving and the babies couldn't wait to jump onto the playground. So the best decision was leave...

Just when this GTM thingy finally taken its toll, we got to pass thru it! Yeaaayyyy...  Setelah sebulan lebih berperang melawan GTM, akhirnya terlewati juga. Seperti yg gue bilang di post2 sebelumnya, temen gue merekomendasikan DSA Yulia di Melinda Hospital. Katanya beliau kalo kasih vit penambah nafsu makan pasti manjur. Wah gue makin menggebu-gebu nih pengen bgt ketemu dr. Yulia... Tanpa ba bi bu langsung gue daftar by phone trus dapet no 40 sekian. Yowes ga papa toh yg penting masih dapet.. Sorenya didatengin lah si dokter, singkat cerita gue jelasin duduk permasalahannya trus dia ngasih resep vitamin yg konon "ampuh" itu. Ga mau nunggu lama lagi, malemnya langsung gue kasi tuh vitamin.. Sambil berdoa semoga beneran ampuh. Secara gue uda hopeless berat.  Besok paginya, seperti biasa gue bikinin Vale sarapan.. Cereal quaker + buah. Dannnnnnnn..... *eng ing eng* HABIS saudara-saudara. Dari yg biasanya makan sejam cuma 1 sendok, ini bisa abis dalam waktu kurang 30 menit. Mimp...

There are times where I just miss my old self. You know I love dressing up. I love make up. I love getting my hair, nail, and everything in between done. I never been through a "tomboy" phase throughout my life. I'm a girly girl kinda girl :D.  But of course, I'm a mom now.. I don't have time to pampering myself anymore. My whole life is our family. However, I still make time to trying to "look good" whenever I go out. Again, Mr. D kept telling me that I don't have to do such things. Leave those heels at home, or you don't have to put that much of make up. Or even at some point he asked, "why are you dressing up? We're just about to go brunch."  "Dressing up" means I only wear my casual dress.. Along with my foundation routine and a very thin eyeliner. And he called it "too much makeup " Arghhh.  He once said that he love my bare face. My second to sleep face. Where there's only my night cream and eye cream s...