trouble in paradise

We're not in our best shape. Lots thing have to be redone, rework, and reconsider. I won't be the one who pledge guilty all the time, for the crime that I didn't commit. I wonder how long he will sentenced me.. Doesn't he feel long enough? I'm still too young at heart, at least for a man like him, whose mind is years ahead his actual age. I wish I can run with him, but his pace is getting fast every single day, and I realize I'm the one who stand still. With my childish behavior, in my safe place, spoiled by people whom I love dearly. He's gone too far... He moves faster than speed of light. I was left alone fantasizing without knowing where our journey end or maybe when to start a new journey?

Maybe simply... I'm not the woman he's looking for.

Well that's a creepy thought, but maybe... just maybe.. we don't belong together. Who knows?
I wish I can turn back time to see how happy we were back then.
I wish I live in a world where marriage is just a stupid piece of paper.

If only you knew how much you mean to me.
I wish I can runaway with you, yeah just you.. Living the dream we once had.

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I'm shaking as I type this. After so many years I haven't update my blog, but i feel like now i need it more than ever. Writing use to be my therapy. so. my husband died. on 22-11-22 to be exact. 85 days ago there. i say it. you won't believe how much courage i've gathered to type this post here. the very blog that witness our journey. from a hopeless teenager, to finally got married, and eventually became parents of two adorable kids. too bad i didn't get a chance to update it more. however i frequently updated my twitter & instagram. so there are traces of our journey there as well. how do i feel? PAIN. EXCRUCIATING PAIN. A PAIN THAT IMPOSSIBLE TO CURE My heart so tattered that there's nothing more to be torn. He died a sudden death. I won't go into details, at least not now. Our 20 years journey ended abrubtly. there goes our future hopes and dreams. __________________ I begin to questioning the existence of God. We've lead a good life. we&

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