Chasing Intan

his father passed away on Saturday. man, that's the worst thing in life. Losing someone you love. Losing someone whom you admire, and someone whom always defends you, losing a FATHER. i realize that i can't feel the same way as he feels. But I am sure it's a terrible, very terrible loss. Even though, it's the best for his father, whom been stroke for these 2years. He cried and cried all night, he told me that he hasn't make his father happy and proud of him. he told me that he met his father everyday but he still couldn't make him laugh (because his father was sick). i can't help but cried too. suddenly i remembered my father. who do you call when you're in trouble? who do you run to when you need someone's shoulder to cry on? Who always defends you? Who taught you so many things and give you the best advice when there's no one understand you, even your mother? God I can't continue this. I'm melting. I'm in tears. update the cremation...

never get enough What happened with me? I should stop.

Life's short. Anything could happen, and it usually does, so there is no point in sitting around thinking about all the ifs, ands and buts. "

Happy V-Day y'all! Errm... This V-Day.. Actually what's the meaning of this day? Honestly I used to be romantic back in the days, because my ex-boy was very romantic till he never stop given me bunch and bunch red roses, and made me poems! Eww kinda ironically, considering who I'm with now, yeap my current boyfriend doesn't romantic at all! And I never regret it, because I think romantic has nothing to do with unconditionally love. What's the point about being romantic? And how's the red roses and poems ended? It's a ZERO thingy for me. Cuz I'm not that romantic. I don't like to be treated that way too. No point of being romantic. The thing is how we treat our lover.. How we care for him.. And loyalty to our relationship. For some girls, that's one of the most important thing in a relationship. For me? No. From my experience, romantic things wouldn't guarantee our love. What I need is a proof. And Roses or Poems are excluded. LOL BTW last n...

*sigh* what a day!!!!! I was on my way to campus and suddenly there was this motor bike, BAM!! crossed in front of me, he fell from his bike and hit my car!!! What can I say? EFF OFF!!!!! I had both fun and f-ed off this day. Oh Jeez I'm.... Speechless! Should I hire a new driver? update #1 Finally I accompanied by my driver everywhere. It feels good being... BOSS! Sit in a back seat and switch the music. LOL update #2 I'm going back on track, I'm boring just to sit in a back seat! So I use my driver just 2 times a week. HA!

Whoaa... What a big night for Amy, congratulation girl, you're worthed to wait, and most of all, you deserved those five Grammys!! She's true original.. Stay clean Amy,, and Stay Healthy. Hope I can see your gig someday :))

The time is NOW. I thought it'd be easy to do a surprise party, but.. damn I wrong. It's not that easy. To bring all his friends on this Saturday, to hide all this hype and secrets from him, and most of all, to make this surprise party memorable and absolutely unforgettable. YES! I MADE IT!!! With lots of help from y'all!! OMG Thank u very much for attended in my party, and made this thing happened beautifully. I have no idea the party can be this great, and it's all because of you friends ^^ First of all, I actually don't have any idea about what gift should I give to him on his birthday. Cause as you know this year is the 6th birthday I celebrated with him. So I'm kinda blank, and I don't know anything else except this crazy party! I organized this party from about a month ago, and it was hard, I tell ya', it was HARD. But I'm happy after all, because this party was success. The party took place in Tomodachi, Dieter's most fave resto of ALL ...

my old man is getting old! Oops.. I mean, not in a REAL way, I just love to call him "my old man". Bcoz u know what? Even though he's 22, but he's acting like he's 30 something! LOL. He's just so mature, but sometimes childish (in a right way). Happy birthday my old man Don't forget that God will always there And hear your prays Never gives up ..Love you.. Always have and always will

To know him is to love him Just to see that smile makes my life worthwhile To know him is to love him And I do, and I do, and I do I'll be good to him, I'll bring joy to him Everyone says there'll come a day When I'll walk alongside of him Why can't he see? How blind can he be? Someday he'll see that he was meant for me To know know know him Is to love love love him And I do, I really do, and I do

will I make it? YES!!

For you I was a flame, Love is a losing game Five story fire as you came, Love is losing game I wish I never played, what a mess we made And now the final frame, Love is a losing game Played out by the band, Love is a losing hand More than I could stand, Love is a losing hand Self professed profound Til' the chips were down Know you’re a gambling man Love is a losing hand Tho' I'd better blind, Love is a fate resigned Memories mar my mind, Love it is a fate resigned Over futile odds, And laughed at by the Gods And now the final frame, Love is a losing game