Chasing Intan

Her departure left a gaping hole in my heart..  We seemed distant. I couldn't stand for more than two seconds just to sit next to her,  let alone looked in those bloodshot eyes. We once so close, inseparable. Like two sides of the same coin.  Now everything has changed. Living in the same house with a person whom you have a - fuck you but love you - relationship is frustrating.  What should I do? Or more importantly, where should I hide? Maybe I shouldn't hide at all.. Override the problems we shared, maybe we should forget who's right and who's wrong Forgive each other and forget about it ... How words easier said than done She hurts me that much until a question popped in my mind, is this the same person who gave birth to me twenty-four years ago? They said, everyone makes mistake. I replied, it was unforgivable.  A broken mirror can be fix, but you will always see the crack  My destructive side has grown a mile wide I once asked for a

no one can understand how you really feel.  you can tell them everything, your life story, you can be descriptive on every little feeling.  but even so,  none of that will ever be enough to understand.

Our world has been surrounded with dark clouds this past month. At least there were two shocking news happened at the same time. First of all, of course the death of Amy Winehouse. And tragedy that happened in Norway. My thoughts goes out to each and every single people whom infected and involved in that, as well as family who lost their loved ones :( Well the little storm in my family was nothing if compared to them. But I still haven't figure it out. I decided to go home several days ago. My runaway attempt only last fifteen days. A record that shouldn't be broken.. There were many things to consider.. Even though deep in my heart I didn't want to back home, but on the other hand I can't lose my sister and brother. They're all I have.. Mom forbade them to met me. And I was like, wtf. Thank God my brothers supported me, I couldn't thank them enough..  I've spoken to a few people whom I trust during those days. Some told me to Stay outside, but some told