Chasing Intan

every birthday gives me new hope to be a better person to seek more wisdom more knowledge  to never settle for second best  i believe there are no accidents.. every person that i've met, every moment that i've lived, everything happens for a reason.  in this past year, i learn to pick my battle. if previously i got easily upset with so many things, especially about my relationship with Mr D. right now i tend to be more sensible and learn to use my logic more than my heart. mind you, i was this bitchy wife who overzealous of everything, who hit the roof when he failed to call me from work, and who bawling my eyes out when he forgot my birthday. but you know what? fuck it. i promise myself to always always pick my battle and think about the positive outcome of all situations. good vibes only. positive vibes only. anything else is just a noise. my daughter refuse to eat? fine. just give her bread or fruits or even her favorite meal ever: oatmeal and milk. it&#

when i only have 1 kid, i was this kinda mom who really strict on everything, let alone screen time. i thought vale didn't expose as much to that.. until my 2nd arrived, i was in the borderline of my sanity. so i thought to myself, hey i deserved a few minutes of peace. since the only thing that can "shut them down" were gadgets, so i let them watch every other day. but as days went day, obviously they wanted more. and i unconsciously gave the gadgets whenever they "made a scene", like when we were at public places. it was easier to gave them gadgets rather than to yell and scream over and over again.  Am i right ladies? FYI at that time, i still limit their screen time to max 30 minutes per day. but when it became daily routine, i realized, oh no, this was wrong. thankfully it only occurred for a few months. Straight after that, we entered the withdrawal phase. even though their gadget consumption was minimum (compared to how my friends gave to their kids)

i met an old friend the other day.. and she said, "you know what? you're one of the luckiest woman i know. you're not working yet you live a comfortable life. drop the kids to school then go breakfast with your friends. have a loving husband and family, smart kids. really, you seem so happy with your life." i was like,  WHAT . . . here's the thing about social media. while its intention to connect people all around the world, for example: instagram makes everyone "closer". we would know for instant who's getting married, who's having a baby, etc without having an exact conversation with the person.. just a scroll through instagram and you think you know their lives. but the truth is, you don't.  we tend to show what the world wants to see... a happy moment, a cute moment with our kids, a birthday celebration, and so on. i mean, it's only a brief aspect of our lives. and people often misinterpret it, compare it with thei