Chasing Intan

current mood : SHOCKED! God I couldn't believe what I've just READ!!!!!! There's an Austrian woman (named Elisabeth F. by authorities) who was imprisoned AND raped by HER OWN FATHER (called Josef F.). And this went on for 24 years!!!!! Wait. It gets more disturbing. According to reports, the woman gave birth to seven children by her father. Three of the children, now aged 5, 18 and 19, lived in the dungeon with Elisabeth and had never seen the light of day until the eldest was recently taken to the hospital because of a severe illness. Police said Josef, an electrical engineering technician by training, had told investigators how to enter the basement dungeon through a small hidden door, operated by a secret code which only he had known. WTF????? According to Elisabeth, Josef had lured her into the basement of the block where the family lived in Amstetten, Austria, on August 24th, 1984, and allegedly drugged and handcuffed her before locking her up in the dungeon. A police

current mood : like a virgin! LOL. Yesterday I attended (again) in my friend's wedding day. She's very young, same age as me. And she committed to married in a such young age. Very brave! And bold! I mean, yeah, she has a lot more courage that I have. I haven't even thinking about when I should tie the knot! Even in my wildest dream, well.. Umm.. Yes I have, to be honest. But it was just a dream, OK. LOL.. I never imagine what I'd be if I married in a young age. Cos I think it's a -once in a lifetime- and it must be perfect. With a right man, in a right time, and at a right place. I've already found the right man(!!!!) , so when is the right time? And where is the right place? FOOL me, I've just added more questions mark without answers in my head! Just wait till it's poppin out! LMAO BTW, I went there with some of my friends. To the newly-wed, congratz for you both! GOD bless y'all!

current mood : mixed up It's been a hell of week for me, first of all, my problems. UGH! Still can't find the solution and answers for all the question marks which always spins in my head. Anyhow, skip all that shitty days,on April 22nd, we celebrated Kartini's Day. Kartini is the woman who tried to placed woman and man in the same position (she's the queen of emancipation here). COOL! She's deserved to be celebrated every single year! GIRL POWER! She's our heroine. Thanks Kartini, you rawk! girl power! Shortly, my bro's school celebrated that day too, I just want to share some pictures of him when he attended in his Kartini's Day at his school! Speechless! The word adorable didn't fit in him, he's way moooooooore adorable than that! my little star And then the disaster came, he fell out and had a serious injury in h is head. He was bleeding, and in serious condition. I was in campus when that thing occurred. I got this phone call from my Mom, a

current mood : moody Seems my post are dark and getting even darker now. Cos I just feel so bad. I can't write all of this into my blog cos it was a very long and never-ending drama! Why life should be this complicated? There's so much drama around me!! Hey we're family, aren't we? Family never gets one of their member hurt. Family never lies. Family rely on each other. Grown up together. And live as one gigantic family. Oh what a sweet phrase I wrote I wish my family as sweet as those. Really love them. BUT ******************** My love for them is TRULY unconditional love. But I hate being in this situation over and over again.

current mood : awful I really tired of this same old thing!! I really tired of this same old thing!! I really tired of this same old thing!! I really tired of this same old thing!! What should I do next? Where should I go next? How will my future bring? Why they treated me so badly? Is it my fault to having a character like this? I'm just trying to be nice to everyone, especially to my parents. But why they keep do that to me? I have to get rid of this situation. I need to change. But how can I change? Everybody's changing But I don't feel it .

STOP SMOKING PLEASE!! I just don't get it when mostly, all grown-men I know is smoking (and there are several girls too). WTF? Is it cool or what? Sadly, my first brother and my Daddy smokes too :( They're heavy smoker I think.. Hmpph.. Does anyone know how to tell them to stop smoking? Cos I think it's so dangerous, maybe you don't feel the effect now, but slowly but sure, the nicotine will kill your body. Even it getting worse when you drink coffee too. I'm glad cos I've never been a smoker, I hate cigarettes. Well my boyfriend used to be a smoker too, but I told him to stop, and he STOP. Although it was so so so damn hard, but finally he realize and he stops his smoking habit. For GOOD. To all of you who never smokes, GREAT! Keep that up, cos smoking is very bad to your health, and think about people around you too. I ever read once that being a passive smoker is also dangerous. But if you're an active smoker now, just learn to stop it. What's the po

current mood : pathetic Why is it so hard to run a good life? Every single day we always find new problems, new questions (without answers), new happiness, new sadness. Always go on and on and on like that! Another day.. Another drama.. I know, and I realize, this is LIFE. But sometimes I feel annoyed of people around me who can't appreciate life, and in my case, can't appreciate PARENTS. Especially their toil to make us be a grown up person, their sacrifice that make us can drive our own car, leave in a beautiful home, eat delicious foods, and all things we personally own. I admit that I ever make them sad couple times, and I really really sorry for that, but as a child, of course we weren't born to be a perfect child. At least I try to. Actually there's one thing that really annoys me right now, but I can't write that into my blog. Cos it'll insult my "closest" person. But the thing is, I don't want to hurt my parents anymore, I want to make them

current mood : praying, hoping, down on my knee Please GOD.. Let it happen. Show us some lights I do believe in miracles We do believe in miracles Ignore me I'm bad But don't ever ignore him Cos he's such an angel Bless him and his family Make this happen Let this happen This dream will come true AMEN

current mood : feelin' stupid I'm so stupid 'Cause I used to live In a fuzzy dream And I used to believe In a pretty pictures That were all around me But now I know for sure That I was stupid I'm so stupid 'Cause I used to live In a tiny bubble And I wanted to be Like all the pretty people That were all around me But now I know for sure That I was stupid Stupider than stupid Please don't try to tempt me It was just greed And it won't protect me Don't want my dreams Adding up to nothing

current mood : angry to myself Why I can't push myself harder and harder? Why I wasn't born with a strong-will to improve myself? Thought I failed to be a real "human". I can't do anything to marked myself in this world. The worst thing is, even though I'm almost 21 now, I haven't make my parents proud of me. But strangely, that thing doesn't make me push myself harder, push me to go the extra miles. What was I thinking? I should pull my brain off my knee! Idiot. Pathetic. Stupid. Stupider than Stupid. Stupidest!

current mood : urgghhhh YouTube was banned here. I heard some gossips that the reason they took away YouTube cos there were several people who uploaded a movie called "Fitna". Well it's a documentary I think, I personally, haven't watch it yet. But what I know from some friends, Fitna was a racism movie, which showed a different point of view of two religions. Its duration is 16 minutes, and there were loads of hardcore killer-scene between that two religions. I'm not so sure about that, just correct me if I'm wrong, cos I never watch it. This is a very sensitive case and I don't want to hurt people who read this. So I won't write too much about it. But why did YouTube banned?? It's sad cos I've an account there and I already uploaded my personal videos when D's birthday, our anniversary, etc, and it was all lost! ALSO, all my fave videos which I saved from YouTube. UNFAIR! I thought they should banned ONLY the video, not the WHOLE YouTube.

current mood : unhappy Here comes the BUSY weeks! Tomorrow will be my first day of my mid-term exam! *sigh* Wish me luck y'all!!!

current mood : speechless!!! I just saw M's latest video : 4 minutes! OMFG!!!! Check it out guys........... And it's already #1 all over the world, incl US! You go M!! update : they deleted M's new video from YouTube!! Fortunately, I've saved it already in my PC! :p update #2 : Maybe some of you have seen M's 4 Minutes video. It's everywhere now. But I'll post it anyway.