Chasing Intan

Memories Light the corners of my mind Misty watercolor memories Of the way we were Scattered pictures Of the smiles we left behind Smiles we gave to one another For the way we were Can it be that it was all so simple then Or has time rewritten every line If we had the chance to do it all again Tell me - Would we? Could we? Memories May be beautiful and yet What's too painful to remember We simply choose to forget So it's the laughter We will remember Whenever we remember The way we were Barbra Streisand Sent from my BlackBerry® smartphone from Sinyal Bagus XL, Nyambung Teruuusss...!

When you reached the lowest point in your life, there always be two options: you can easily lose hope and drowned in an enormous regrets feeling or.. you can bounce back, keep your head held high, face it, and be a better self. They said our tears will dry on their own. But the pain that left can't be undone and forgotten. Here's an instant example: you got burn and it left scar on your skin. The pain will eventually gone, but the scar will be there forever. Yes, my tears would be dry.. just for a WHILE. I had a strength to bounce back and recharged myself through all this time, but I can't be like this forever.. I'm sure someday I'll stop at one point where I can't take it anymore & wave the white flag. I'm NOT a superwoman. Do I really love him... Or addicted to the pain? Sent from my BlackBerry® smartphone from Sinyal Bagus XL, Nyambung Teruuusss...!

Nicholas Kirkwood suede lace up 120mm Nicholas Kirkwood cut out bootie 120mm - black, lace, leather! Nicholas Kirkwood for Rodarte Sand 120mm - the artsy shoes I have a MAYJAH shoecrush to  Nicholas Kirkwood . I've been seeing his collection in various magazine and websites all over the net for months. The man knows how to translate the word art  in shoeworld.  Even one of his masterpiece became SJP's shoebsession. She wears it with anything! (literally), her LBD, boyfriend blazer, cute dress, and even her jeans! I couldn't agree more with her cos bold shoes can go with almost everything. Personally, I really fall for the cut out bootie: black lace leather . PERFECT! While the 3rd picture shows his sense of art even though the shoes are impossible to wear (except for ones who dare to wear it.) SJP with her shoebsession SJP wears it with almost everything Ah... I wish I can rob a bank. LOL. Find out more detail  here . 

When I was a little, I often heard songs about mothers:  Mother, How are You Today?;   Mama; Bunda  (means Mama in bahasa) to name a few. Every songs that parents-related are all about mother. Yes Mother plays a really big part in our life, but it doesn't mean we can easily forget the existence of Father figure.  Today I went to hospital by mean of visiting my friend's Dad whom has been comma for a week. He fell and then he passed out. Things were going so fast. No fuss No rush. I knew her Dad has hypertension but who would've thought it attack suddenly? I was with my boyfriend when the first time I heard the news. We immediately prayed for her Dad & her family that night. It's so devastating to received such a bad news. But who could handle it? God has plans for each one of us.  I never love being in a hospital, no matter how fancy it is, hospital is my most hated place (who doesn't?) There always two things left in my heart after a hospital visit: fear ...

On exact August 17th sixty five years ago, Indonesia stated its own independence day on behalf our first president, the one and only  Sukarno .  Now, sixty five years later from 1945.. We celebrated our independence day in a different way. Some subdistrict keep the tradition by organize events such as  lomba balap karung, lomba makan kerupuk, lomba panjat pinang,  etc. (Sorry I couldn't find a proper word to describe it in English). Some keep in the modern way by blabbing through 140 characters on twitter using  #indonesia65 . They're like, "let's make Indonesian independence day a TT (Trending Topic)". Yes they made it to the top 10, and then what? I sincerely think, words are not enough, let alone a trending topic.  Anyhow, I was keeping it real. Surprisingly, I've missed upacara bendera . It's a ritual that implemented every Independence Day in honor to reminisce about our heroes and heroines who struggled between wars and finally made Indones...

TopShop PAISLEY Flower Cut-Out Boots A combination  of ankle boots with large flower cut makes it look edgy but still has a girly side. I'm dying to buy them but unfortunately TopShop online doesn't ship to Indonesia :( There's a TopShop store here, but this beautiful piece is nowhere to be found and often cost a lot more than it actually is. More detail  here . 

Yesterday I made an effort to clean up my room, not entire room but I manage to move all my shoes to somewhere nicer than my room. It's frustrating everytime I step into my room, all I see were shoe boxes everywhere! I was tired to hear all cynical comments regarding this situation, especially from my boyfriend, whom a regular member there. He was like, "will you ever STOP shoe-shopping?" I shrugged. It's kinda irritated me cos I loved my shoes (and many many my shoes-to-be) very much. OK there are like several new pairs that haven't been worn, but I'm sure I'll wear them someday.  Shortly, I took out all of them from their boxes. As I keep on going, I asked myself, how many shoes is too many shoes? It seems I always craving for more. Whenever I walk into a store, I directly go to the shoe racks. Moreover, I had a strange dream the other night: I dive across the ocean just to find my favorite pair of Manolo ! I know it sounds very silly, but hey, e...