Chasing Intan

hate her or love her, she's one living legend. and i choose the latter.  *cough* she's *cough* fifty-four. hoping to catch Madonna on her new tour, heard from a grapevine that she'll be visiting australia in early 2013. i'll no longer under "single" status by then, so i hope dieter cooperative enough to arrange our honeymoon to the down under. hahaha.  one of my biggest obsession since many many years ago has always been watching Madonna live in concert. i've followed her career since (don't laugh at me) 1998. Ray of Light hooked me up. and her concerts were UNBELIEVABLE. it's like nowhere near earth. seriously.  i don't want to make same mistake again, i blew a chance to meet amy :'( i don't want same thing happen with M. so dieter, i know you won't read this blog post. but i believe in the power of telepathy. lol.  (transmitting him a message) australia.... australia... 2013... madonna... australia...  besos xx ...

before this blog become dirtiest than ever, i put myself a lot of effort to write a new post.. well.. life has been very shitty. i've seen better days. oh come on, you've no idea... no idea.  i don't want to bring such negativity to a place that once so delighting and lovable (for me the least)  so i will keep the misery deep in my heart. it's nowhere near public consumption anyway. only my closest people and my own self who knows me, the rest is trivia. so keep guessing (yes you know who you are!) let's move to a more positive story, shall we? a while ago I went to Singapore with Dieter's family. At first we wanted to celebrate our 9th year anniversary there and take a vacation all at once. But suddenly out of the blue, Ci Imel's longtime friend came up with this idea of take pictures of us. I wasn't categorized it as pre-wedding pictures but turns out, it was. Her friend (named Nicholas) is an architect and currently live in S...

My mind is flying to exactly nine years ago, when you sat down nervously in front of me. March 3rd 2003 You wore that hat with shabby tee and pale green shorts. You bowed your head down, couldn't stop moving your feet...a quirk that i learned about you that day. We're losing words. Only sat in silence. You were busy with your cell phone. Nokia circa 2003? Can't recall the type, but I'm pretty sure it's tiny. Minutes gone by and you passed me on your cell phone. You said, "read it..please." Confusedly, I took it and read what was in the message box. Turned out, it's a declaration of love. He text something like, "dieter love intan. Would you be my girlfriend?" I was like, euw so corny innit? Unlike any other girl who supposedly cheer up, I was caught in the moment. Nothing happened between us except a dead silence. I've known this guy for only 3 months. Too quick to step our feet on further level. I said, "sorry. I can't give y...