Chasing Intan

God must love me so much for He give me generous amount of blessing in my life.. On March 30 2013, I celebrated two major & important events. Both can only happens once in a lifetime. I called it a milestone.  Dieter and I have been together for TEN years. Throughout those times we've been to hell, heaven, hell again, heaven again, in between. It's always been us against the world. But in the end we made it to our first decade. My sister said that I should change the anniversary date to our wedding date back in November. But somehow, we refuse to let 30 March 2003 gone away. It was indeed a remarkable 10 fucking years. We're inseparable, we couldn't let the day go by without seeing each other (I'm serious), he'd stood for me and vice versa. No one can beat either us or the power of our love. It's so HUGE that we could passed all the storms together. We've been down several times but managed to bounce up again and be stronger than ever. Whe...

Bumil satu ini mau berbagi cerita tentang pregnancy so far... yang udah jalan ke 18minggu. Changes Selain fisik (yang makin gedaaay bahenol), beberapa perubahan mental juga gue sempet rasain. Waktu baca dua hasil TP dengan dua strip yang sangatt kentara tebelnya, perasaan gue asli campur aduk. Tapi horrrornya, perasaan yang paling dominan gue rasain adalah WHAT?! secepat ini??!! Gue yakin sang lovely misua juga punya perasaan yang kurang lebih sama. Walaupun kita biasa aja gak begitu nunjukin, tapi tetep keliatan lah dia kaget waktu tau gue hamil. Secara gue pikir dulu pas gue hamil bakal ada derai air mata, taunya kaga tuh... Hehehe. Gue inget banget pas TP tanggal 31 Dec kemaren, sebelum taun baru di rumah. Kita kan nikah tanggal 17 Nov, well, do the math . Ternyata di antara rasa sakit pertama-tama kali have sex (yang jauh dari kata berhasil) itu, ada satu sperm yang berhasil membuahi telur gue. OK.   physically Anyway, berat badan gue udah naik sekitar 3...

A bit overwhelmed by my pregnancy and things, I started to forget my old hobby. Listening a good music all alone by myself. When I was single, I used to listen to my favorite music whenever I feel lonely ( of which I rarely alone now). Because my taste always different from other, I never be able to listen music with somebody else (except my darling husband) But listen to music by yourself is magical. So when earphone in, I ignored the world. I ran out of good songs in my playlist, all I hear everyday is Amy Winehouse live set from 2004 which I treasured so much.. (Yes I'm still listening to Amy). And a few Etta James & Ella Fitzgerald. Although on Christmas months ago, my playlist loaded with many Michael Buble's. But really, as good as his album, it feels inappropriate to listen it on March. Oh and my sissy insist to add Rihanna's Diamond to my playlist, cos she thought I'd love it. Yes I love it, and then loathe it right away after the 5th play. The r...

Haven't I talk about ones of my favorite people in the world? Introducing, my lovely sister and brother.. Arlin and Kenrick. I could talk about them all day, everyday like 24/7. I love them THAT much. Even D once questioned me about my love to him compare to them! LOL. He's such a jealousy. Being an oldest sister sometimes is not enough. I have to be their friends (please notice the age differences! I'm now 25 going 26, my sister is now 20 and my lil brother is only 10!) Can you imagine how I have to cope, let alone befriended with them? When I'm with Arlin, I have to be a cool college girl (complete with all the drama surroundings and men thingy and study matters) She would talk all about her days at Uni, her probs with men,, friends, and so on. We shared a lot... Apart from clothes and shoes cos we're totally different when it comes to our fashion senses. Err... I don't know whether she's keeping something from me, but I don't. I'm lik...

You've taken the pregnancy test, and shared the good news with everyone. Everyone says, "Congratulations! You must be so happy!" Yes, you are glad you're expecting, and yet, you're not quite ecstatic. You're actually unhappy sometimes. To make matters worse, you then feel guilty about being unhappy and make yourself even more depressed. Is something wrong with you? No. http://www.babycenter.in/a539921/pregnancy-blues#ixzz2NPFzPeBJ Oh well :'( I thought the feeling would go away. but I still feel it here and there. no matter how i try to be positive. it would come and gone and come again.

Thanks to God I didn't go through such horrible weeks in my early pregnancy. Morning sickness, drowsiness, stomach upset, etc. I just lost my appetite by then and now it's slowly getting better. I managed to stay positive, think positive, act positive, everything that make my baby healthy and happy. But there's an exception like today, when I loathe myself so so much, I don't want to look at my reflection in the mirror.. When on happier day, I can sit in front of it for hours. They say pregnancy can cause a terrible mood swing.. But I have a reason for my negativity today. I just feel so idiot. For not continuing pursue my dream, both as writer and make up artist. It's always been that first step. And a fear of failure that haunted me. I guess I can do it, but I don't wanna do it cos I'm spoiled. I have a very loving, kind husband. You can say I'm in a safest, greenest zone now. I have him as my shelter, my rock, a place to hide, to hang on to. Be...

There's a first time in everything. Today marked as the day we give away angpao to those who close with our hearts. People whom we love and admire. Those who gave angpao to us every CNY :) especially our parents. The year of dragon passed in a blink of an eye. So many things happened. First of all we bought a house, then our engagement, unexpected pre-wed, Dieter's expanding business, Ci Imel also bought a house nearby and got engaged as well.. She will later move to Surabaya with her dear husband. And then our wedding back in November. Dieter bought his first sport bike (thanks to bali trip! haha) and Last but not least, me getting pregnant towards the end of 2012! What a yearrrrr!!! It's like we always run instead of walk. We are really grateful for what we have done and achieve. Hoping for a more peaceful year perhaps? But with my labor and all, I kinda doubt that haha. Well we'll see what the water snake brings us! Happy Chinese New Year to those who celeb...