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birthing madness



I just spent two wholly hours to watch YouTube videos. This time, not Amy's videos unfortunately (sorry Ames!) 

With full bravery, I typed "give birth naturally" on the search tab. Now THAT, my friend, considered to be one of bravest thing I've ever done. Cos the outcome was totally totally...... Indescribable. Curious? Go watch it yourself (if you dare) Ha! 

I went from give birth at hospital bed, give birth at home, to give birth on swimming pool, give birth on birthing pool... all the way to give birth while standing. Call me lunatic, but I couldn't help to watch it one by one. YouTube always has this smart "suggested videos" thumbnails so the story will go on and on until my hubby said, "CAN YOU STOP THAT?" His reaction went from "Ooh..." "Aah..." to "Eww.." "Yuck" until he couldn't take it no more. LOL 

But the (cough) pinnacle of this birthing madness, was when I caught one video that titled "cesarean birth/c section". O MY GOD. My fucking GOD. (Sorry I have to swear) It's only 4 minutes long but OH GOD. It was really disturbing.I know it's a common medical procedure, people do it all the time. But after watch the video, I become more and more against it. I know some women prefer to give birth that way (I still don't understand WHY?!), but I personally will try my best to give birth naturally. I pray hard to God so by the time I give birth, I'll be able to give birth naturally. I hope there won't be any complications such as placenta previa, etc. (Briefly explained in this video).

There are varies birthing alternatives and I'm not cynical to women who want to do C-section without any specific reason like the aforementioned video. But after reading articles about birthing and (blah) watched video about that, I strongly believe C-section is not for me. For the first time in my life, I don't surrounded with self doubts. I mean, many women (even ancient women) did the vaginal birth. As women who live in a modern world, we have many privileges that they didn't have. We can give birth on a sterile hospital bed, watched by professional doctor/midwifes, and on a comfort of our family. If they could do it then, why wouldn't we? After all, it's the time that we've been waiting for so long. Nine months long.. To see our baby for the very first time. To let our baby breathe its first air in this world. Don't you want to make it a beautiful memory? Even Kourtney K pulled her babies (both Mason & Penelope) out by herself. .(Rock on, KK!) That's really amazing, you know? 

I was like laughing so hard when one of my friend dying to do a C-section because she wanted to give birth on a "pretty date" like 11/11/11 or 12/12/12 or 10/10/10. WELL........ Ha Ha Ha. What's the point?! Even Steve Jobs was born on 11-8-1950.. Ummm not so pretty date for a man whom everyone looking forward to. Find a better reason la.. :D


PSsst... that's just my $.02 :) 

and please... can I hear   AMEN



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