Chasing Intan

curent mood: excited!! I got my 1st job at DBS Bank!! Wow.. We're counting the end of 2008 today! So many things have passed in the last 365 days, and I'm still wondering, what have I done? Am I already become a "person" that I wished 12 months ago? Time moves so fast. It was like yesterday, we're celebrating the new year's eve in my house with lots of pizza, pasta, n wine. LOL. But the most important thing is not the celebration, but the will to be a better person. OK actually we can easily change, not always in "new year", but you know, we often feel motivated when new year come. Everyone's busy making the resolution, the achievement list, the dream, etc. But how many of them that really can make it come true? Not much I think.. I'm just so thankful that I'm one of them. I remember the first wish that I wrote last year was "find my God and lead me to His way". And there I have it now. The second was, I wanna still celebrate ne...

There are too many questions There is not one solution There is no resurrection There is so much confusion There are too many options There is no consolation I have lost my illusions What I want is an explanation There is no comprehension There is real isolation There is so much destruction What I want is a celebration And I know I can feel bad When I get in a bad mood And the world can look so sad Only you make me feel good ♥

curent mood: down I really don't know what to say about this. I'm just feeling the weirdest thing about my relationship. Maybe because it's way too long (almost six years), or maybe I just bored with this situation over and over. Oh Gosh I need a fresh air.. I wanna have fun with myself, I wanna runaway just a moment. Trapped. Again. For this time I need to listen what my heart says, not others' heart. And once again, our ♥ being tested.. Life's full of choice, but which one is the truest? Which one is the best for us? What's next darling?

Hope y'all have a wonderful Christmas God Bless You ^^

Latest Christmas carol for 2008! LOL Recession is coming to town! You'd better watch out You'd better not cry You'd better keep cash I'm telling you why: Recession is coming to town. It's hitting you once, It's hitting you twice It doesn't care if you've been careful and wise Recession is coming to town It's worthless if you've got shares It's worthless if you've got bonds It's safe when you've got cash in hand So keep cash for goodness sake, HEY You'd better watch out You'd better not cry You'd better keep cash I'm telling you why: Recession is coming to town! Finance products are confusing Finance products are so vague The banks make you bear the cost of risk So keep out for goodness sake, OH You'd better watch out You'd better not cry You'd better keep cash I'm telling you why: Recession is coming to town.

curent mood: excited congratulations for my boyfriend! Finally you've made it! After a long waiting.. There you have it darling.. VALENTINUS DIETER

Oh.. My God!! Sexiest man alive is.. JASON STATHAM. Suddenly, after watched Lock, Stock, and Two Smoking Barrels, it was "love" at the first sight. Fall in love to him even more after watched Transporter 1 & 2, Crank, War/Rogue Assassin, The Bank Job, Italian Job, Snatch. His masculine face, his accent, his voice, his credibility to fight (damn it!), his muscle, his 6-packs-abs, his everything! He should be the next Bond. Anyway here's my review. Saw it on its premiere last Saturday night. After my crabbing that Quantum of Solace didn't give me the James Bond rush I expected from the series, I happily saw Transporter 3 with Jason Statham's taciturn, scowling super Fed-Ex-like operative, Frank Martin. Jason Statham is perfect as Frank- I doubt there is anyone doing this kind of role better at the moment. I enjoyed this film way more than the latest Bond! This installment exists as nothing more than a Jason Statham fetish movie. We see him kicking ass shirtless ...

He asked me to the church on Saturday. I didn't know what happened with me, but that was the first time EVER, my heart was beating when I stood up and walked straight to the priest, and he made me a "cross" sign right in my forehead. Whilst he whispered something to me, and I ended up saying "Amen". I hope it was a sign that God given to me. I believe He does exist. I forgot to mention that last week I received email from my sister, called "a letter from God". When I read it I was in my car, driving. But I couldn't help it till I drowned to tears. It was coincidentally, because at the same time I read the email, I was feeling blue, too. *Family Issue*. So when I read it, I couldn't help but cry. I wish I can find such beautiful words in my family. The warmth, the joy, which I rarely get. I'll post the letter soon, since it's still nowhere to be found. I've become more certain that God has show me His way, and His light. Amen.

I loved this movie for the movie it was, nothing more. If you try and compare this movie to the book, of course you're going to end up hating the movie, because the book is, by far, way better. First of all, the movie does start off kind of slow. It's the type of film where they expect you to know everything about the story line in the first 10-15 minutes of the movie. It also does get kind of boring at parts, and some performances could've been better in many ways, but still, in my opinion, this movie indeed rocked. The characters were very well established, the fight/suspense scenes were cool and exciting, and I even began to shed a few tears with the every now and then romance. All in all, I don't see how anyone can flat out hate this movie. It was very fun and entertaining and although it didn't "live up" to the book, it did a very good job, and to me, it was the best it could be without going too far into necessary details and focusing too much on des...

dear blog I haven't write to you for a while. There are many stories that I passed these recent weeks. And it seems, Blackberry could not help me much to not ignore my darling blog. Anyway... Enough is enough. Let's start writing. On Tuesday, I went to Jakarta with my boyfriend. I accompanied him to the airport, cos he would sent his goods to Ambon. Along the way, I looked at him, and I realize that how lucky I am to have him in my life. My mind flew to a time what would I be if I never meet him? Maybe I'm still a Daddy's little girl who knows nothing about struggle, about achievement, and about life. I kept saying this in my blog cos I'm very thankful to have him. He's on his way to 23, but his experience, his mental, his ideology, has gone too far from his age. One thing that I never understand, why my Dad do not respect him? Just because he's not a multi-million dollar man? Or is it because he's not coming from a "big" family? I never see a ...

You're wondering now.. What to do, now you know this is the end.. You're wondering how.. You will pay for the way you misbehave..

Finally I own my 1st Blackberry Curve. It's so good I really enjoy it. Nah, this is my first post from my BB. I thought it'd be nice to write what's in my mind as soon as I get any thoughts. Thank God for technology. LOL. So, before I go straight to sleep (like I can). I wanna share something that quiet painful for me. This occured several hours ago, my lil bro came down to me and asked, "sister, why I never see you praying?". Well what can I say? That I'm no longer Moslem? Or that now I'm starting to go to church? Or maybe I have to say that now I'm in borderline. Don't know where to go.. Shame on me to see the kid, at age 5 ask me something about religion. Is this a wake up call? When will you wake up from this dream Intan darling?

Oh Jeez.. NO! Can't believe what I've just saw on TV! 1 USD = IDR 12300 things are getting lotta worse! How can I take care my business then? 

current mood :( Well, this is a rough week for me, no, not week, but months! Problems come and go, but I don't understand why they always follow me. One problem clear, there goes another, always go on and on like that. Sometimes I wanna back to the moment where I still know nothing about everything. Oh how I missed my childhood.. When my brain was only fulfilled with games and play and cartoon and food and dolls. But I have to face the reality, that life isn't as sweet as candy. Life's full of ups and downs, right and wrong, good and bad. It end up with a choice . Life is a choice . Is life fair? I still haven't find the answer, cos I feel that sometimes life isn't fair. Why this why that , there are too many questions that I'd like to ask to God , (if God ever exist). How can I lose my faith, God? Maybe I feel this emptiness around my chest because I don't have You in my life. But how can I find You ? And where? I'm searching for You all over the p...

I seen a rainbow yesterday But too many storms have come Leaving a trace of not one God-given ray Is it because my life is ten shades of grey I pray all ten fade away Seldom praise Him for the sunny days And like His promise is true Only my faith can undo The many chances I blew To bring my life to a new Clear blue and unconditional skies Have dried the tears from my eyes No more lonely cries My only bleedin' hope is for the folk who can't cope With such an endurin' pain that it keeps 'em in the pouring rain Who's to blame for shootin' cain into you're own vein What a shame you shoot and aim for someone else's brain You claim the insane and name this day in time For fallin' prey to crime I say the system got you victim to your own mind Dreams are hopeless aspirations In hopes of comin' true Believe in yourself The rest is up to me and you

I looked through the mirror and I saw her Fancy dress, beautiful make-up, with designer handbag Who's that girl? I looked into her eyes and saw nothing But an empty mind, an empty soul Who are you without those things? Deep down inside She's searching for something The meaning of her life.

First of all, I begin with the movie I'm dying to see... James Bond : Quantum of Solace. I went to see this with my boyfriend, thinking that it would be the same amazing picture that was Casino Royale. Sadly, it wasn't. Quantum of Solace still has the action, the girl and the explosions that you'd expect, but it is still missing something. By removing the gadgets, the car (only around for the first 5 minutes) and the improvisation that you'd expect a Bond flick to have, it has removed essentially what is a Bond film and what you are left with is the story. And the story was not that thought out. Many moments left me thinking: "what was the point of that?". The film is a lot darker, focusing mainly on the character seeking "revenge" but was not the film I expected it to be. A good watch, better than anything else at the cinema now, but not as good a film as I thought, and I felt a bit disappointed walking out. At most 7/10. Meanwhile, congratulations...

Sometimes, our anger and depression are caused by very real and inescapable problems in our lives. Not all anger is misplaced, and often it's a healthy, natural response to these difficulties. There is also a cultural belief that every problem has a solution, and it adds to our depression to find out that this isn't always the case. The best attitude to bring to such a situation, then, is not to focus on finding the solution, but rather on how you handle and face the problem.

Have you ever feel that you're the dumbest, stupidest person on earth? I did some terrible mistakes most of my life, feel like I can do nothing right.. I always wrong. Although I always tell everyone my slogan " absolutely no regrets ". But actually, there are several things that I wish I didn't do. I wish I can study more, I wish I exercise more, I wish I'm not a forgetful girl and can remember every single thing that ever happened in my life, I wish I wish I wish.. Many things I've missed in my whole life. I've messed it up and now I regret it. FFS, please forget those trashy feeling!!! back to reality.......... I've two new best-friends right now. It called "Anger" and "Depression". This "anger" and "depression" always track me down nowadays. Especially when I near my deadline, whether it's essay or Pre-Order on my OL shop. It's just... Frustrating. Sometimes I thought, can I do this alone? But than my...

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current mood: ?!#@~^&* My Dad's best friend died yesterday on age 67. I couldn't help but think, so what's the meaning of life? People was born, live to die someday. I just realized, once again, that life is nothing bout fame and fortune. No matter how rich you are when you live in this world, but what will you bring the day He take you home? Nothing. Will He care about your money or your power? I guess not. What He care about is, your behavior when you live, and how you treat people. Sometimes people are so selfish, greed, and sacrifice others for their own importance. Girls become materialistic. Nowadays, girls don't attracted man in physical, but how thick his wallet is :) Wow, that's the fact. One day I met this man, about 6 years ago, and one of my girlfriend asked, "What car does he own? What business?". From those conversation, I know that she's not a REAL friend, she didn't care about my happiness, all she care about was money. But girl...

current mood: sad sad sad Things are getting worse on Ritchie's household :( Madonna and her husband will end their marriage after almost eight years! OMG!! Why did it go wrong, M? I hate divorces.  My heart goes for their three children, Lola, Rocco, and little David. 

Then I've found mine. Thank God.

There was a man showed me a sketch he'd drown once during his meditation. It was an androgynous human figure, standing up, hands clasped in prayer. But this figure had four legs, and no head. Where the head should have been, there was only a wild foliage of ferns and flowers. There was a small, smiling face drawn over the heart. He said to me, "To find the balance you want, this is what you must become. You must keep your feet grounded so firmly on the earth that it's like you have four legs, instead of two. That way, you can stay in the world. But you must stop looking at the world through your head. You must look through your heart, instead. That way, you will know God."

Current mood: over-tired, over-excited, over-LOADED!! Just got back from HOLIDAY!!!! I just blessed that I still can spend my holiday being surrounded with people I love the most. Well, my holiday was as great as usual. I'm so grateful that I still been able to travel :) although this is my #... visit to Bali, but this place is wonderful. You always want to back there for more. To double the experiences, the fun, the trip to ancient places and temples, eat delicious Balinese food such as duck and seafood :p even tanned your skin and cash out your money in every store that exist! LOL. Nuff story about Bali, cos I'm sure everyone will know what I'd been doing there :) The greatest thing was, my family. I really really, I mean REALLY love them. The only thing you can depend on is your family. The best thing to hold onto life is each other. 6 days in Bali. How I miss my boyfriend. I thought last week was the longest time we didn't meet. We always see each other almost e...

I just wanna share a song that I really love nowadays! Can't stop listening to it. LOL. Here it is: the closest person to "HIP HOP" --- NAS and talented black lady: LAURYN HILL. enjoy :D

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[Glitterfy.com - *Glitter Words*] Last week, my two girls celebrated their birthday!! First of all, my sister Imelda , who celebrated her 26th birthday on last Friday (Sept 12) Gawd, how can I describe her? She's a multi-talented, luckiest, toughest girl in the world! You'll be amazing if I write down her Curriculum Vitae here! She's b een thro ugh ma ny storms in her life, and that what makes her stand the way she is now. You won't believe every goal that she has achieve in her life. Too many to list. Too long to mention. She's just.. Incredible !! (I'd wish I can be like her someday, LOL) That's way too dreamy. I always pray that she will get what she's been dreaming of, reach another milestone, and wish the best for her!! In the other side of this world... My girl Amy was also celebrating her 25th birthday on Se pt 14th. She's a very talented woman, the best female song-writer I've ever heard in ages (after I discovered Madonna 10 years ago...

current mood: irritated Baby you've hurt me. Autour de moi Je ne vois pas Qui sont les anges Surement pas moi Encore une fois Je suis cassée Encore une fois Je n’y crois pas All around me I could not see Who are the angels Surely not me Once more again I am broken Once more again I don’t believe it ... I've been so high I've been so down Up to the skies Down to the ground ...

current mood: still busy. Hi all. How's the Saturday nite? Hope it's as good as mine. I had a pretty fun time, keeping yourself busy is a great way to stay young and healthy. LOL This morning, I was searching an accounting journal for my final thesis, while I replied all orders from my customers. My fingers were dancing all over the keyboard! Then I went to campus to met my teacher, and my boyfriend picked me up for our "weekend-date". LOL. One thing that left me a HUGE question mark on my head is: TODAY, there are at least 5 friends of mine who ask "When will you marry?" I mean, FIVE. Wow, at the same day! And I was like, "Where'd you get it? Do I sit in the "hot seat" of gossip world?" LOL. I couldn't help but LMAO. And what did I say? "AMEN!" ^__________^ I took it as a wish for us to get marry soon, although I'm NOT going to marry anytime soon. No No. I'm not ready, we're not ready actually.. But my boy...

Current mood : BLURRED Well, I haven't posting for a while. My days were as busy as hell. First of all, my final thesis..... Urgh, still haven't find the right topic. There are too many consideration. And, OH, I'm starting my own online boutique!! Really excited about this, and of course, really wasting my time. From editing to uploading to promoting and to confirming. My first session will be start Sept 1st. Let's see what happen :)) Anyway, here's my first online boutique Cutesy Girlz I'm far away from professional, but at least I tried. I'll update my site everyday, and keep improve it. Please check out my new collection, since it's high quality dresses with LOWEST price. *cough* LOL [Glitterfy.com - *Glitter Photos*]

John Mayer recently said this in one of his concert: "I don't think that life is short. So I think you should stop saying that. 'Life is short, man.' No it's not! Life is excrusiatingly long. Let me rephrase that. The life you got left is excrusiatingly long. The life behind you, it's done. So yeah, life is short, but only when you turn around and look at it. But if you keep looking forward, you got a lot of years to think about. If you don't think life is long, if you life every day like life is short, you know what you become? A fuckin' asshole. You gotta live your life like someday soon you're gonna hit some miserable Tuesday night that's just gonna seem to go on for days and days and days. Waiting for either some phone call to come that doesn't come or some phone call to stop that won't stop. Because as it's laid out in front of you seems to go on forever. But look back to when you were 4 and it seems like last Sunday. So just ke...

"Someone To Watch Over Me" There's a saying old, says that "love is blind" Still we're often told, "Seek and ye shall find" So I'm going to seek a certain lad I've had in mind Looking everywhere, haven't found him yet He's the big affair I cannot forget Only man i ever think of with regret I'd like to add his initial to my monogram Tell me where is the shepherd for this lost lamb? There's a somebody I'm longin' to see I hope that he turns out to be Someone to watch over me I'm a little lamb who's lost in the wood I know I could always be good To one who'll watch over me Although he may not be the man some girls think of as handsome To my heart, he carries the key Won't you tell him please to put on some speed Follow my lead Oh, how i need Someone to watch over me Amy-Jade Winehouse

Happy Birthday!! Long Live The Queen!!! Thank you for enriching our life and making the world a much better place too! Looking FAB at 50!

say hi to my new baby :) PS: Thanks so much Dad!! xoxoxoxo

current mood : still upset Every children biggest dream would always be make their parents proud. Including me. But how? Many whispers came to my ear that said, "Go ahead and find your place at your Dad's Co.", "Why wasting more time with useless job?", "Don't ever try to work in a -desperately-needing-investment Bank!", and blah and blah and blah. Dude I really wanna show my Dad that I can earn myself money. Now my new car is on its way to my garage doesn't mean I'm fully happy. I mean, I feel very grateful with my Dad's present, but I realize that it will burden me. How long until I can earn my own money? Let's rewind to two years ago, when my friends busy to get a part-time job. This "part-time job" means SPG (Sales Promotion Girl), or Bridesmaid (at someone else's wedding), or Wedding Organizer's crew. That's all we can do for our status as a under-graduate student. Nothing else more and nothing else better...

current mood : upset Why can't I be you? Why can't I just be myself?? Everybody's changing and I don't feel it [Keane]

Sweet memory... Kenn and Billie Kenn, Dieter, Billie Last night I dreamt about Billie [picture on the right]. And it was a nightmare, really :( So Billie came to me, hugged me tightly, and he said that he was sick. He was keep crying on my lap.. Then I woke up, in tears :( Have I told you about him? About one year ago, my Mom adopted him. Actually he's one of our family relative. But unfortunately, he came from a broken-home family. His parent got divorced, [and I don't understand why], no one really care of him, [he was around 3.5 y.o], his Mom runaway to Jakarta, while his Dad built a new family with his new wife! What a bastard! So my Mom decided to brought him to our house and stay with us AND without permission from another family member. Our reactian was like, "wtf?". Cos Billie is a very rebellious kid [no wonder, considering where he came from!], he's wild, and yeah, he's annoying. I didn't treat him right at that time. So did my Sister and my ol...