When I walk in your shoes
I understand a man confused
They much too big, but I don't care
I felt the way your shoulders bare
Now I really empathize
Looking through your bloodshoot eyes..
And I know you, you're so frustrated
Above we all become what we once hated
Beside, nobody can't be that wise
You got a degree in "philosophy"
So you think you cleverer than me
But I'm not just some drama queen
Cos it's where you're at, not where you've been
So what do you expect from me?
To hold your head above the sea..
And carry you, even though you bigger
Cos don't you know, you crush my tiny figure
And anyway, we're still so young
And this isn't yesterday..
I can't help you, if you won't help yourself
I can't help you, if you don't help yourself
You can't only get so much from someone else
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I'm shaking as I type this. After so many years I haven't update my blog, but i feel like now i need it more than ever. Writing use to be my therapy. so. my husband died. on 22-11-22 to be exact. 85 days ago there. i say it. you won't believe how much courage i've gathered to type this post here. the very blog that witness our journey. from a hopeless teenager, to finally got married, and eventually became parents of two adorable kids. too bad i didn't get a chance to update it more. however i frequently updated my twitter & instagram. so there are traces of our journey there as well. how do i feel? PAIN. EXCRUCIATING PAIN. A PAIN THAT IMPOSSIBLE TO CURE My heart so tattered that there's nothing more to be torn. He died a sudden death. I won't go into details, at least not now. Our 20 years journey ended abrubtly. there goes our future hopes and dreams. __________________ I begin to questioning the existence of God. We've lead a good life. w...
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But I'd rather keep it untitled since I didn't know what was going on in my heart..