Chasing Intan

how come i never write a single post about my precious little star? tiny, perfect, and loud my daughter was born on april 1st 2016. perfectly healthy and tiny. and... just like any mother who looked at her newborn baby for the first time, i thought she was the most beautiful baby. tiny (only weighed about 2,7kgs at that time) but cried so loud. the nurse said that she was the loudest in baby's room. we welcome her home a few days later, i constantly worried about vale would bumped into her or jumped on her (cos you know, he has always been an active boy). but thankfully, we survived the very first month. my beautiful baby his first father's day with two kids getting chubbier each day :) Valerie vs Valentino toothless smile same outfit, different kid learn to stand up first birthday  her first year was tumultuous. she brought joy but on the other side, she wasn't an easy baby. sh...

wow.. it's been like, almost 4 years since the last time I blog. actually i have several drafts that i haven't published yet. either because i hadn't finish it, or i got a booty call. lol.. not in sexual content, but more like my kids were craving for attention. since my littlest one still breastfeeding. i do miss having to write my thoughts sometimes. i'm still like me several years ago, drowning in my thoughts (both negative and positive, even though i prefer the latter). but i guess just like every young mother everywhere, i get caught up in motherhood. seriously though, it really drains me out. first of all, my son is now 5yo while my darling daughter is 2.5yo. i mean, so many things happen in this last 4 years, crazy crazy ride. a handful of huge fight as well with the Mister. we're now into our 6th year, i couldn't say it's our best year yet. i seriously ever considered to call this off once or twice (yes it happened!) but in the end, love wins. and...

Wait... What?  Earlier this month I went to the obgyn and he said that my pregnancy already entered 21 weeks. Weighing 600grams and he said the baby is 80% girl. Woohooo...  Ahh with all the packed activities everyday, juggling between my #terrifictwo toddler and my business.. Time shows no sign of slowing down.  I can't say my 2nd pregnancy is better than the first, cos it is worse indeed.  Vale is now 16kgs (yup very heavy I know) and I still carry him around. Especially when we're doing groceries or running errands at mall. Lil boy has his own imagination already. And in public places, he's such a mess. Mr D and I just had a heart attack when all of sudden Vale entered the elevator by himself and it was only matter of second before the door closed. How crazy is that. So we have to be fully focus on Vale.. Oh and don't even try to bring escalator subject to the picture. He always run around toward escalator everytime he saw one. And he hates it when we hold his han...

On last Friday, I was approached by Vale's teacher, she said she wanted to have words with me. I was like, "ooh what now?"  At the end of class, I sat with her and she told things that actually have been haunting me for some time now. "Miss, some parents have complained to me about Vale's hitting behavior at class."  I muted for 5 seconds. I knew it was coming, but when it actually came, I just... Speechless I guess.  First of all, she asked me about how Vale behave outside school? How is he at home? Did I / anyone else have hit him so he copy the behavior?  Oh wow. I mean, those questions intimated me. I replied, "no one ever hit him, he's with me ALL the time. I don't use baby sitter. Vale never watches TV except the minions 1/2 hour per day. I don't have TV channels in my house." I even explained to her that I have a healthy marriage. Cos I think she wanted to be sure that Vale was raised in a happy home.  I was embarrassed. I don...

Darling son celebrated his 2nd birthday on last August. I wish I could write more but it's been a hectic ride these past months..  When he entered 2 years old, wow i mean TWO.  My friends were like, beware of the "terrible two" phase. I read at some articles that the phase is kinda real. So i was preparing myself, but when it finally came.... Boy it hit me like a perfect storm.  Yes Vale is stubborn. He is tough, dominant, rough-player, headstrong, brave, and strong (you wouldn't believe what he can do with his tiny bod!) I don't like the word "terrible two" so I chose "terrific two" instead. And I'm completely the opposite. I am soft, spoiled, sensitive. Once I thought, I had this tough task. How to handle this little devil? I will write some of his antics here..  1. Words to live by everyday are : No pushing, no kicking, no hitting, no biting. He does that all the time. He's in pre school now, so he has a lot of "friends" a....

We've been together for almost ten years before decided to get married. If someone asked what is the difference between the days when we were dating and today as husband and wife? Hmm I guess, none. Cos we used to be open about everything.. From our financial struggle to our silly dreams and even our family history. From our bad habits, our past, and weakness.. etc. So when we get married, we didn't experience the "new married couple" drama. I heard a lot about how man would act differently once they tied the knot. But no, we didn't experience it. We're all exactly the same, even better. I think that is one of many reason why our love stand through time.  But we did struggle in one major area though. I'm sure we all know about Love Language. Yup, those 5 love Languages.  Well well well, it come as a surprise that turn out, our love languages are completely different. And I implicitly applied "MY" preferred love language to my partner.  My choices...

Just when you need that much needed support... I stumbled upon a page that shows this particular child seem couldn't have enough food to eat.  Just when my son refuse to eat for a millionth time, my friend bragged about how getting her kids to eat is as easy as walking in the park.  Bento? FAILED big time  New delicious menu? Major major FAIL New plate, new presentation? Also FAILED Shut up! Don't ever tell me I'm not trying.